What is Your Inner Self?

“You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to no burden your friends with your problems. You’ve faced some problems in your life. Your heart has dealt blows before. You tend to think about things alot more than other people. And you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about what would happen later.You are also the type of person that others often come to you with their problems because you’ve been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely. Your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed.You usually are logical, and rely alot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases.”

Saw it on Collin’s blog and thought I should try it. It’s quite accurate, this quiz (at least for me it is)

P.S. Do cheer up, Collin, we have faith in you

Right.

Lately,  I’ve been seeing/hearing this phrase a lot: “Tomorrow is  a new start.” To all those that propagate such a notion, I have this to say: BULLSHIT. It’s utter rubbish; try as you might, you will never be able to escape your past. And if you are out there propagating such false notions, and giving false hopes to people, then you are either a ignorant idiot or a hypocrite.

Sorry, needed to get it out of my system.

Unappreciated?

Havent blogged in a long while but had this sudden urge to blog.

Lately, I’ve been feeling just a little unappreciated. But really, do we ever have the right to feel this way? For some reason, feeling unappreciated sounds really stuck-up. After all, what have you done for others that deserves to be appreciated? What if whatever you have done is really no big deal? And really, are one’s acts of service done out of altruism and love, or merely out of a need to feel appreciated? If done out of the latter, then I think your life is really sad. I think MY life is really sad.

I’m a terrible human being, aren’t I? That’s a Happy Easter for you.

Heartbroken.

It breaks my heart to see you like this.

I want to do something about it. I really do. But everytime I try to listen, the background noise overwhelms. Everytime I peer into the windows that will give me a glimpse into your life, an obstruction appears.

When will I be allowed into your life?

Haunted.

Extreme mood swings, dizzy spells, terrible headaches, fatigue; all these sound awfully familiar. It terrifies me, the prospect of going through this all over again.

Somebody save me. It musnt happen again. NOT NOW.

A random thought.

“I’m not sure what this could mean
I don’t think you’re what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I’ll never see just what we’re meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say”

And it’s over.

Orientation’s over, and my heart is aching and breaking. I feel terrible every day! I MISS MY ORIENTATION ADHOC SO MUCH! LOVE YOU GUYS.

Yeah, I even miss taking attendence. Imagine that! ‘Nuff said.

25.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. I’m such a bitch that my best friend once remarked: “Ain’t karma a bitch? We know Kenrick is.”
2. Abovementioned statement shows how vengeful I am. I don’t forgive and I don’t forget.
3. I think everyone secretly hates me, but only because I wouldn’t be friends with myself if I were someone else.
4. I am terribly insecure and have a non-existent self-esteem.
5. I try to hide points 3 and 4 by being loud and crazy and bitchy.
6. I am often guilty, and extremely fond of, schandenfreude. Which makes it my guilty pleasure, haha.
7. I am extremely generous with my friends.
8. I like running because it’s therapeutic (of course, my size says otherwise)
9. My weight yoyos like crazy. It can lie anywhere in between the 70-100 kg range.
10. A study on all the mental illnesses I have can fill a textbook on psychology.
11. Which explains why I want to study psychology in the future: to cure myself.
12. Apparently, my OCD is contagious. Maybe it’s viral?
13. My DISC says that I’m an ID. Meaning I’m kinda schizo.
14. I’m still trying to find a horror movie that can spook me. Suggestions?
15. I love shopping! And being clean and neat and tidy.
16. My mother thinks I hate shopping and being clean and neat and tidy.
17. I value loyalty and honesty a lot.
18. I love the airport. I can sit there alone for an entire day, either thinking about the brevity of life, or studying chemistry. No, for some very obscure reason I can’t do both at the same time.
19. I am extremely cynical about everything.
20. I love children. They make me smile
21. My favourite movie of all time is Mean Girls.
22. Apparently, my curses only work when I curse people unintentionally. Like the “big yellow school bus” curse and the “lose at mahjong” curse.
23. I dream of the oddest things ever.
24. I surf Wikipedia when I’m bored.
25. I secretly believe in true love (okay, now it’s no longer a secret.)

25 things.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. I’m such a bitch that my best friend once remarked: “Ain’t karma a bitch? We know Kenrick is.”
2. Abovementioned statement shows how vengeful I am. I don’t forgive and I don’t forget.
3. I think everyone secretly hates me, but only because I wouldn’t be friends with myself if I were someone else.
4. I am terribly insecure and have a non-existent self-esteem.
5. I try to hide points 3 and 4 by being loud and crazy and bitchy.
6. I am often guilty, and extremely fond of, schandenfreude. Which makes it my guilty pleasure, haha.
7. I am extremely generous with my friends.
8. I like running because it’s therapeutic (of course, my size says otherwise)
9. My weight yoyos like crazy. It can lie anywhere in between the 70-100 kg range.
10. A study on all the mental illnesses I have can fill a textbook on psychology.
11. Which explains why I want to study psychology in the future: to cure myself.
12. Apparently, my OCD is contagious. Maybe it’s viral?
13. My DISC says that I’m an ID. Meaning I’m kinda schizo.
14. I’m still trying to find a horror movie that can spook me. Suggestions?
15. I love shopping! And being clean and neat and tidy.
16. My mother thinks I hate shopping and being clean and neat and tidy.
17. I value loyalty and honesty a lot.
18. I love the airport. I can sit there alone for an entire day, either thinking about the brevity of life, or studying chemistry. No, for some very obscure reason I can’t do both at the same time.
19. I am extremely cynical about everything.
20. I love children. They make me smile
21. My favourite movie of all time is Mean Girls.
22. Apparently, my curses only work when I curse people unintentionally. Like the “big yellow school bus” curse and the “lose at mahjong” curse.
23. I dream of the oddest things ever.
24. I surf Wikipedia when I’m bored.
25. I secretly believe in true love (okay, now it’s no longer a secret.)

Strangled.

I feel constricted by the amount of workload that is piling up. Its crazy. Stressed, and I’m finding it hard to breathe. And you butting into my head at the most unexpected of moments doesnt make all of these any easier to understand. I am so confused, and I don’t know what to do. Someone get me the hell out of this place